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Last night was brand new and dashboard. i went with lisa kayla teej and andrew. it was sick. well actually, brand new disapointed me mass amounts. they played everything from their new cd and not any old classics which was a total bummber. and they played like a garage band it was upsetting. if i was sober id prob have been mucho pissed. BUt dashboard came on and they were amazinggg<3.  yes. and the train ride there was very funny. yummy hot chocolate;) . well, thats about it. last weekend was the cyo conference for youth group which was extremly fun too. and im going to OAR sometime in january, i think maybe the 27th? christmas is very soon, my family is going to get our tree today. i might go to the city again tonight to see the tree rockafellar but im not sure. i want to go play boogle with my poppy. i love my poppy. okay CIAO

i dont understand.. what the hell am i doing wrong? why do i feel like all my friends hate me? wtf i feel like they always treat me like shit and only care about themselves and never include me in anything. fuck this they only care about their fucking selves
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yesterday was the college fair at RCC and it made me realize how fucking badly i wanted to leave this town and never come back. hopefully i will go look at Ithaca next weekend. i heard that was a sick school. who knows where ill end up going or what i will do with my life when i grow up, just so long as i never have to see half the people from my school ever again.